| Location | Nottingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Other Disease |
| Date of Birth | 02/02/2007 |
| Date of Death | 02/02/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,818 since 29/01/2009 |
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I'll never forget the day we found out you were ill - Monday 25th September 2006 at 4pm. We felt
like our world had collapsed. The sonographer was taking ages then she went to get a second opinion
then said "It appears some of your baby's diaphragm is missing but don't worry - It's fixable". If
only it was that simple. I was then scanned every few weeks and you were given a 50/50 chance of
survival. At 39 weeks my blood pressure became too high so I was booked for an induction on 1st
Feb. At 2:30 the following morning my waters broke and you were born at 3:43am on Friday 2nd Feb
2007. Your eyes were closed, you were so very still and an awful grey colour - but I could see your
heart beating. You were soon taken off to the neonatal unit. Your Daddy went off to ring your
Mamma to tell her you had arrived and it was then that I felt the loneliest, most frightened I've
been in my life. The midwife took us to see you at 6:15am, the doctor looking after you said "I'm
afraid your Son is very, very ill". I looked at him and just knew he was telling us you were not
going to be with us for long. For the next 2 hours we sat and talked to you and stroked your hands
but at 8:15am I got an overwhelming feeling that I had to leave. Your Daddy agreed so we went to
get my things and I was transferred up onto the ward. I was placed next to 3 healthy, crying babies
and I was just about to go and ask if I could be moved as it was more than I could bear listening to
their cries, knowing I would probably never hear yours, when the neonatal nurse appeared around the
curtain and said you had taken a turn for the worse and I just knew that you had gone off with the
angels then Sweetheart. Sure enough when we got there the consultant said you were in cardiac
arrest and they had been working on you for 20 mins but you were not going to survive. We spent the
whole day with you Sweetheart and you looked so very peaceful, just like you had had a big milk feed
and enjoying a snooze after. You were buried 2 weeks later with lots of teddies, toy cars from your
big brother Christian and photo's of all your family. It never stopped raining the day you were put
into the Earth. After your post mortem (sorry you had to go through that Sweetheart but we needed
to know why you were so very poorly, more so than anyone expected) it was found that you had
bilateral diaphragmatic hernia which is very, very rare. None of the staff had ever seen a baby
with it before so you are so very special Sweetheart. Your lungs were less than a quarter of the
size of a term newborn so you had far too much to battle against. You were destined for the angels
all along. I know you are at peace now, no more suffering sweet baby, safely resting in your
Grandma Jordan's arms.
This is a poem composed for you by your Great Aunt Marion.
May these few words remember one so loved
Lift up your hearts, let your spirit be moved
Into that secret place within our souls
A place so protective against life's tolls
On moonbeams and rainbows from Heaven he came
Findlay Lucas was his given name
A boy so perfect in every way
Little we knew he couldn't stay
Look to the stars, see him play there
Playing in Heaven, Earth and everywhere
A gap in the clouds, see the sun's rays
become....
A playground slide where he happily plays
When placed in the earth from whence he came
Tears of a thousand angels fell as rain
Washing the grief of those attended
Hoping their hearts will soon be mended.
god bless findlay
Findlay i never got to see you but i know alot about you and how much your family love and miss you, i met your mummy at your resting place because my little angel is also there, i have great comfort in believing you are heaven buddies, we can not physically love you so we hope you are loving one another. and having fun in heaven, your brother christian knows all about you and you now have a baby brother Isaac, he will also know so much about you when he grows up, your depart has left a hole in your mummy and daddys heart for which can never be filled, Your loved so very much, God bless you sweet boy xx A poam for your family
In a babies castle just beyond my eye,
my baby plays with angel toys,
that money can not buy.
Who am i to wish him back
into this word of strife?
no, play on my angel
you have eternal life.
At night when all is silent,
and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I'll hear his footsteps,
come running to my side.
A big Thank You to everyone that leaves posts, tributes, gifts and lights candles for Findlay. It is very comforting and means such a lot to us. God bless you all. xxxxxxxxxx
Hope you have had a nice day playing in your garden with all your special friends sweetheart. Ni Night sleep tight. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
my heart goes to you all on this day as it was 6 years ago i lost my son as well
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Happy birthday angel....
Sending a very special boy lots of love and birthday wishes. Sleep well and sweet dreams. x x x
Well Findlay it's very nearly your 2nd Birthday. Two years ago you were well on your well to being born, I just hope and pray that you didn't suffer too much. We came to see you today (although I bet you were looking down on us) and left you balloons, a teddy, plants and your cards. I'm praying that the snow will go overnight and we can come and spend time with you tomorrow. If it was just me I'd come whatever but I have to think of your brothers, they both have colds already. I'm going now to choose you a nice gift just incase we do get to see you in the morning as I won't be able to come here until later in the day and I don't want you to be without presents on your special day. Lots of Love as always and an extra big birthday kiss. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
A golden heart stopped beating,
Two smiling eyes at rest,
God broke your familys hearts to prove to them,
He only takes the best.
SWEET DREAMS BEAUTIFUL ANGEL.XxXxXxXx
"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.
Angel wings, upon the clouds,
Your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little angel,
No more tears you have to weep.
Little prayers,are sent to you,
The short life you led;
Your family will never forget you,
So rest your little head.
I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.
You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
Your loved by so many,
It will never be goodbye.
Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears,just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
we know you did your best.
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