| Location | Nottingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Other Disease |
| Date of Birth | 02/02/2007 |
| Date of Death | 02/02/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,788 since 29/01/2009 |
| Creator |
I'll never forget the day we found out you were ill - Monday 25th September 2006 at 4pm. We felt
like our world had collapsed. The sonographer was taking ages then she went to get a second opinion
then said "It appears some of your baby's diaphragm is missing but don't worry - It's fixable". If
only it was that simple. I was then scanned every few weeks and you were given a 50/50 chance of
survival. At 39 weeks my blood pressure became too high so I was booked for an induction on 1st
Feb. At 2:30 the following morning my waters broke and you were born at 3:43am on Friday 2nd Feb
2007. Your eyes were closed, you were so very still and an awful grey colour - but I could see your
heart beating. You were soon taken off to the neonatal unit. Your Daddy went off to ring your
Mamma to tell her you had arrived and it was then that I felt the loneliest, most frightened I've
been in my life. The midwife took us to see you at 6:15am, the doctor looking after you said "I'm
afraid your Son is very, very ill". I looked at him and just knew he was telling us you were not
going to be with us for long. For the next 2 hours we sat and talked to you and stroked your hands
but at 8:15am I got an overwhelming feeling that I had to leave. Your Daddy agreed so we went to
get my things and I was transferred up onto the ward. I was placed next to 3 healthy, crying babies
and I was just about to go and ask if I could be moved as it was more than I could bear listening to
their cries, knowing I would probably never hear yours, when the neonatal nurse appeared around the
curtain and said you had taken a turn for the worse and I just knew that you had gone off with the
angels then Sweetheart. Sure enough when we got there the consultant said you were in cardiac
arrest and they had been working on you for 20 mins but you were not going to survive. We spent the
whole day with you Sweetheart and you looked so very peaceful, just like you had had a big milk feed
and enjoying a snooze after. You were buried 2 weeks later with lots of teddies, toy cars from your
big brother Christian and photo's of all your family. It never stopped raining the day you were put
into the Earth. After your post mortem (sorry you had to go through that Sweetheart but we needed
to know why you were so very poorly, more so than anyone expected) it was found that you had
bilateral diaphragmatic hernia which is very, very rare. None of the staff had ever seen a baby
with it before so you are so very special Sweetheart. Your lungs were less than a quarter of the
size of a term newborn so you had far too much to battle against. You were destined for the angels
all along. I know you are at peace now, no more suffering sweet baby, safely resting in your
Grandma Jordan's arms.
This is a poem composed for you by your Great Aunt Marion.
May these few words remember one so loved
Lift up your hearts, let your spirit be moved
Into that secret place within our souls
A place so protective against life's tolls
On moonbeams and rainbows from Heaven he came
Findlay Lucas was his given name
A boy so perfect in every way
Little we knew he couldn't stay
Look to the stars, see him play there
Playing in Heaven, Earth and everywhere
A gap in the clouds, see the sun's rays
become....
A playground slide where he happily plays
When placed in the earth from whence he came
Tears of a thousand angels fell as rain
Washing the grief of those attended
Hoping their hearts will soon be mended.
xxx
What makes a Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say.
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true.'
But God, can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can, He replied
With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this, God
I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say:
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are ok
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize
You are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
And you know you're the best one!
I dont know how i cam across findlay site but as soon as i saw his grgeous picture i had the urge to look at his site so clicked on his site and burst into tears my son also died from the same condition after living 27 hour he died 31st jan 07 and the pain is still raw ! How beutiful and presious and beautiful is your son, sending floaty kisses to him and all the other angels and hugs to you and his family thinking of you all . so sorry you have had to go through this too and if you evr want to talk feel free to message me xxx
Sending lots of hugs and kisses
Tiny Angels
Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".
Author Unknown
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If I could be an Angel,
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I know just what I'd do.
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I would guard someone special,
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Someone just like you.
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I'd be the friend you need,
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Anytime day or night.
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When you need someone to lead,
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I'd guide you with my light.
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And if you began to stumble,
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I'd reach out my hand to you.
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I'd help with all your trouble,
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And take away your sorrow too.
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But since I'm not an Angel,
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By your side I'll stand.
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I'll reach out my hand.
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Wave of Light - 15/09/09
Candles are a gift of light
A tiny sun
A bit of star.
No other dancer in the night
Dances with such sheer delight
Each a glimpse of what we are
Shining innocent and pure.
Love to you and all your family precious angel xxxx
Life's A Climb - Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
there's a voice inside of my head, tellin' me
"you'll never reach it"
every step I'm takin'
every move I make
feels lost in no direction,
my faith is shakin'
but I gotta keep tryin'
gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
The struggles I'm facing
the changes I'm taking
sometimes they knock me down, but
no I'm not breaking
I may not know where, but
these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
Keep on movin'
keep climbin'
keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
the climb
keep the faith, keep your faith!
My Dear Family xx
It's me again from Heaven
With a message from above
Feel my spirit all around you
As I sprinkle you with love...
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I have watched you, as your tears flow
I have heard your silent screams
I know you sleep with visions
Of me visiting your dreams...
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I have come and sat beside you
Placed my hands upon your face
Wiped away the many teardrops
I so wish I could erase...
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I have watched you every day now
Seen such pain within your eyes
I just wish that there were some way
I could help you realise...
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I am happy up in Heaven
In this peaceful loving place
Where I will be here waiting
To welcome you with my embrace...
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You will join me here in Heaven
When your time comes you’ll see
Leave your Earthly cares behind you
Travel on to where you’re free...
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I have heard you ask to go now
But there is more for you to do
I promise I'll be waiting
When your time on earth is through ...
A Mother's Love
I didn’t have to look into your eyes
To fall in love with you.
I didn’t have to hear you cry
To know you loved me too.
I didn’t need to hold your hand
To cherish you always.
Within my womb we shared our hearts
You touched my soul
You sweetened my spirit
You gave me memories I’ll always
Hold very dear
Yes, my heart aches since
You departed so soon
But a mothers love does not
End with death
For you are my child
my love is forever yours.
Live For Me
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
And that I chose to spend the time I had with you.
If I could, I would tell you that you are not to blame
For all was written in the stars, so long ago.
If I could I would tell you that I love you
And just how much our time together meant to me;
How I remember every kiss, and the loving arms that held me
And in my memory, I beg of you, please don't forget to live!
LIVE FOR ME! Don't take a moment for granted
Every breath you take and every friend you make is a precious, precious gift.
LIVE FOR ME! Open up your heart and let the people that surround you
Help you love again - LOVE and LIVE for me!
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
And I remember every precious moment shared.
I would ask you to release any pain that still remains
And fill your heart with peace and love for you and me.
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
I would hold your hand and tell you that I am fine.
Cause here I play with the angels, and I even dance with God among the stars
And the love and light I feel is all I need!
LIVE FOR ME! Don't take a moment for granted
Every breath you take and every friend you make is a precious, precious gift.
LIVE FOR ME! Open up your heart and let the people that surround you
Help you love again - LOVE and LIVE for me!!!
Forgive yourself and love yourself and
Love all those around you; in memory of me.
LIVE FOR ME! Your life is a gift of mine as much as it is yours
So please, please, LIVE and LOVE for Me!
♥ღ♥ A Last Goodbye ♥ღ♥
Though happily each year began
I had to die whilst very young
It is so long since our last touch
And I miss your presence there so much
Of many things I needed to learn
So to this place God made me turn
Yet with so many things to do
I have taken this moment to speak to you
The life that was, was not to be mine
Yet within this world it has worked out fine
Where I am now I have found new friends
In a place called Heaven where the spirit ascends
Straight to this world few pass it by
And no one here can really die
Although this child you cannot see
I know you'd be so proud of me
I look forward to when I'll see you mum
So until it is your time to come
Enjoy your life
And please don't cry
I just came to say goodbye.
Steve Franklin Palmer
♥ ♥ HEAVEN ♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without the children there,
Playing hide and seek in pearly mists
Free from every pain and care.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their carefree rapture,
Scrambling through the fluffy clouds
Each happy moment to capture
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Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their shouts and laughter
Echoing across Elysian fields
As starbursts they chase after
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their joyful choir
Ringing through celestial realms
Sweet voices rising ever higher
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Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their radiant light,
Undimmed by earth's murky shades
Their robes shining bright.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their smiles of pleasure,
Bearing sheaves of rainbow flowers;
Children are Heaven's treasure.
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